You know if you saw the footage, I clearly said, 'It was racist.' I've been working in the Hindi film industry from the age of 17, and I've never been treated like that. I never did anything in the House to hurt them or to make them feel I was unfriendly. They had this attitude towards me, and I didn't know where it was coming from. This kind of attitude happens among women who are insecure or jealous. But I was never subjected to this kind of a thing.

Was it a girlie thing carried too far?

There was a groupism, and a divide. So coming back to your question about whether the situation was racist, I said yes. But I don't like to hold grudges. When I went to the dining room, Big Brother asked me if Jade Goody's attitude towards me was racist. That's when I realised the gravity of the situation. I realised the entire Asian communist would be hurt if I used that word. And I had no idea my words were creating a furore across the world. So I revised my earlier opinion and told all the Indians, Pakistanis and Bangladeshis who were listening that it was mean, rude, obnoxious and arrogant behaviour. But it wasn't racist behaviour.