'When we watch our films, everything is beautiful, functional, people wear designer clothes.'
'I've been a part of those films, but in the last eight, nine years, I haven't done anything like that.'
A string of flops right after his debut movie was not how Arjun Rampal imagined his Bollywood journey to be and the actor says he was very "disturbed" by the phase as he was not enjoying his work.
He made his debut in Rajiv Rai's Pyaar Ishq Aur Mohabbat in 2001 and box office duds like Deewaanapan, Dil Hai Tumhaara, Tehzeeb, Dil Ka Rishta followed.
"When you come into the industry, you don't know the place, there are so many people advising you to do this, do that," Arjun tells PTI.
"That time everyone was doing stories with a love triangle, or love rectangle element. That phase started to change slowly, but I was very disturbed," he adds.
"Every time I was walking out of those films, I wasn't feeling anything. The movie got over, it released, it didn't work, then we tried to better the same thing in another film," he recalls.
The actor says he is happy that he did not achieve success for performances which were not up to the mark.
"Initially in my career, I have done films where I have tried to do something different. When you try something, it's an experiment. If it doesn't work, it's called a mistake. If it works, it's a super success."
"I am glad what was not good acting didn't work. If it had worked, imagine how scary that would've been? I would've got caught up in that (zone)."
Arjun says, things changed with "new breed of filmmakers" such as Farhan Akhtar, who cast him in the remake of Don which turned to be a boon for his career.
"When I worked with Farhan in Don, I thought here is a guy with great sensibility. It was refreshing. Even Farah Khan has a different sensibility. Her rhythm is different and as an actor, one has to sense the rhythm of directors and work accordingly."
The 44-year-old believes he has "matured over the years as an actor."
"You get seasoned and understand the craft. The insecurity goes away," he adds.
Arjun is currently awaiting the release of his latest Daddy, in which he will essay the role of gangster-turned- politician Arun Gawli.
"It is a commercial film, but not a diluted fantasy gangster drama. We took the rights. No one has done that before (referring to taking rights from Gawli) because they want to dilute it, glamorise the person. That's not my sensibility," he says.
Arjun, who has also produced the film, says it depicts the "real story" of India, one which is seldom shown in commercial movies.
"This is a story of India. When we watch our films (referring to commercial films), everything is beautiful, functional, people wear designer clothes. I've been a part of those films but in the last eight, nine years, I haven't done anything like that. Not because I have anything against them, but I was not getting anything out of it."
"I could get a hit film, but that's not what it is. I am in a phase where I want to do challenging stuff, otherwise I won't do it," he adds.
Directed by Ashim Ahluwalia, Daddy will release on September 8.
IMAGE: Arjun Rampal plays gangster-turned-politician Arun Gawli in Daddy.
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