'We still need to put in a good performance and leave with a bit of pride, because it's hurting.'
Opener Dawid Malan may have been England’s lone soldier in a disastrous World Cup campaign, but, at 36, the second-oldest member of the team feels the match against Pakistan on Saturday could be his "last" ODI.
Out of the semi-final race, the defending champions will play their concluding match of the World Cup at Kolkata’s Eden Gardens.
"Yeah, I guess I'm in a unique situation being the second-oldest in this team. I don't know what my future holds, whether that be my choice or the team's choice," said Malan, during the pre-match media conference.
With one century and two fifties, the left-handed opener is England’s top run-getter (373) in this World Cup.
"After this tournament probably, I’ll have a bit of reflection time and see where I'm at and see what the future holds for me.
"Tomorrow could be the last game of cricket for England for me and it could still be the start of another journey. Who knows? We'll only find out when the dust settles," he added.
A late bloomer, having made his international debut at the age of 29, Malan was the standout white-ball cricketer for England and held the No. 1 T20 ranking.
The veteran is also the only batter to feature in England's record T20I and ODI totals -- 241/3 vs New Zealand and 498/4 against the Netherlands respectively, having scored a century in each.
Notwithstanding his prime numbers, Malan is well-aware that his England days could be numbered and may well get set for his last global tournament when they fight for another title defence in the T20I World Cup in the Caribbean and USA in June next year.
Given a choice, Malan said he would have liked to go on.
"Yeah, definitely! Playing for England means everything for me. I've made no secret of that; I've always wanted to be part of this team and play for England for as long as I can.
“But ultimately you get to a stage where you have to look a little bit further ahead and what's best for maybe the team and what's best for everything else; so you know I guess there are decisions to be made over the next couple of days when the dust has settled and, yeah, we'll see where we end up," he added.
England head to the West Indies for a white-ball series, beginning with the first of three ODIs on December 3. It follows a five-match T20I series.
England suffered six defeats in eight matches, which included a five-match losing streak, and were knocked out of semi-final race in the World Cup.
"I guess from a physical side -- the body's quite sore. I've got to admit it's been quite long. When you're winning games of cricket it doesn't feel as sore when you're losing it; you know it starts to feel a bit heavy.
"But, from a batting point of view, I feel like I'm playing as well as I've ever played. I feel like I'm still as good as I've ever been, and I guess that desire to keep scoring as many runs as I can is always there," he added.
From being title-holders to elimination quite early, it’s been a roller coaster journey for England.
"The sport changes quickly. It has a way of biting you in the backside. It creeps up on you quite quickly. We're so disappointed in the fact that we are here (Kolkata) playing against Pakistan at Eden Gardens and we're not in the race for it.
"It's disappointing. But we still have a lot to play for, we still have the Champions' Trophy. I don't know if we have actually qualified for that or not yet, but we still need to put in a good performance and leave with a bit of pride, because it's hurting."
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